So, my new years resolution in 2014 was quite simple. I told myself, this year – you will “do less“. That was it.
I have a horrible habit of overextending myself, giving too much, and never being able to say no. This has always been my biggest downfall.
Unfortunately, when I decided to “do less”.. it turned into me not doing much at all and still everything at the same time. I tried to tell myself to relax at the gym which basically turned into a year long on and off hiatus. I decided to care less about what i ate.. which was essentially a year long feast on whatever I wanted.
The best thing that came out of me “doing less” was an amazing year long relationship with a guy I never thought I’d see myself with. He was nothing what I had ever gone for in the past, and it was one of the most refreshing things I’ve ever done. I was the extreme version of myself from the moment I met him (in an attempt to scare him away) and somehow it worked.
The most important thing I realized is that I can’t “do less”, it’s not in my nature. By definition, I’m an overachiever in the sense nothing is ever enough. It worked for me for 23 years, so why did I stop?
Perhaps it was because I fell in love and although I was “doing less” (for myself), I was doing everything I could for somebody else. I needed somewhere to channel all of my energy so naturally I diverted it to the most important person in my life. Now, don’t get me wrong, love is an absolutely amazing thing and I don’t think I ever want to live my life without it now that I know how wonderful it is but this year, 2015 is going to be about doing MORE. More for MYSELF and my well being.
My 25th birthday is in less than three months and as horrifying as that is, knowing that I will become a quarter century old has me freaking out and realizing I need to take care of myself again. So, here’s to 2015, I’m going to “do more“.